Letter to ‘Self ‘
Miss Dixita Mour
Subject: This letter is written with the objective of setting ‘Resolution-Reminder’ to me.
I am beginning this letter with I love myself the most.
This doesn’t mean I am self-centred or I don’t care for other relations ,I do care a lot but to give best of my appearance to my people I need to be happy myself and when I thought about it whether I am happy or not now? I was surprised at the answer that I am not at all happy as I used to be in my childhood days. So the idea strikes to me to why not write a letter to myself?
I asked myself.
Dear, why are you not happy? (P.S: Don’t cheat yourself)
Replied my soul – I don’t have time for ‘myself’. I have made myself so busy in the worldly things that I became unknown to my own self. I am a girl who is 20 but the feeling of ‘love’ doesn’t cherish me. I don’t like enjoying the life, going to parties, meeting friends or dressing up for self. I limited my happiness to my phone. Social world started gripping my mood. I developed fear of meeting people of my own life because of their weird thoughts. I don’t like their interrupting in my life so I started keeping a distance from them and when I looked back one day I found myself standing alone.
Then I gave a thought on it that why does the world’s talk matter to me now?
When I was a child I was happy with a big gang of friends, I never took any taunts or scolding seriously but what happened to me now?
I became self-conscious, the answer came to me.
And then I decided to change this so I thought to compare myself with the little me and the younger me and note down all the things that I remembered.
1. Earlier I was a little girl free of worries; I went to school, did homework, studied, managed family time and played every evening.
Now I am busy playing the role of a daughter murdering my dreams for family and I do not remember the last time I travelled alone or played with friends.
2. Earlier I found time to Dance and sing and won many prizes on that.
Now I feel that I don’t know anything about dance because I do not remember the last I taped my feet at the rhythm of any song.
3. Earlier I ate chocolates and never shared my Chocó’s with anyone.
Now I don’t like eating them because I am health conscious.
4. Earlier I did not operate mobile and now my smart phone is operating me.
5. Earlier I was not matured and now I am premature.
6. Earlier I did not read and now I love reading books.
And many more thoughts. But these six were enough to bring back the missing happiness back to my life so I decided to find a solution by examining the above notes.
I read in the book ‘The Monk who sold his Ferrari’ many useful quotes that makes life easier if we follow them .One of them is –
‘We think about 60000 thoughts in a day. By writing to your desires and goals on paper you send a red flag to your subconscious mind that these thoughts are far more important than the remaining 59,999 other ones.’
And I decided that above six points I will write out six thoughts and start following that six daily by reading them daily so they become my habit.
These golden points came out when I worked on the notes:-
a. I decided that I will go for morning walk; write two blogs daily no matter whatever is the situation at home. (This is also my blogging Resolution I made on 20th February 2016 when I got to know that blogging makes me happy because of #BlogChatter)
b. I decided that I will re-bring my love for dance by joining dance classes for classical.
c. I love coffee a lot so no matter however unhealthy it is! I have it similarly I made my mind that it’s okay if I eat chocolates or eat street side occasionally.
d. I decided to listen to people’s taunts and then ignore it if I don’t like, as I did in childhood.
e. I made my mind that I won’t let my smart-phone rule me so to fix timings of daily.
f. I will read all the good books that I missed in my childhood and before I die I want to finish reading the entire book I own by that time.
g. And last but not the least I decided to be not much emotional for family because family is part of life for sure but ultimately I have to accept the truth that “I came alone and I will go alone.
I made a strong promise with myself to follow this all.
Trick: The trick that I use to make anything my habit is that I practice the things for 21 days without missing for a day and then it will become my habit. (I found this trick in The Monk who sold his Ferrari)
Lastly I want to say, I am happy now that this letter gave wings to my happiness.
With love, be you!
And thank you for being patient and listening to your own conscience.
This post is a part of the prompt of the week, Letter, by the BlogChatter community. What started as a weekly Twitter chat, #blogchatter, is now a booming and blooming community of bloggers, who blog together to blog better helping and supporting each other.